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        I weigh 72 kilos now. it's difficult to sleep, maybe I dream of
        the talks and people. we chat and eat pastries, they're very
        sweet. my kids greet me back home. I drive fast on the highway,
        it's late, my side view mirror is smashed too. I buy algerian
        pastries from a new shop in belleville where my car is parked.
        we (pit, diana and martin) are having a drink rue saint-maur and
        debate the past days and favorite topics like mailing-list
        moderation (nay!). We leave the museum and decide to keep our
        badges as forbidden souvenirs. after talking to the french
        underground comix posse (very nice girl with yellow boots and
        glasses) we witness fredox doing his presentation of "le dernier
        cri", he says "what is there to say about a publisher other than
        that they make books!", the video is playing at the wrong speed
        no on notices it, but this is why we can't hear the sound.
        fredox is great fun, he has lots of serigraphed books to show.
        martin conrads is very seriously fun too. I like his new suit.
        he talks about formats and let's us hear excerpts from convex
        archives, a tennis match. he greets the brits and it's the turn
        of josephine berry to tell of crash media, though people (like
        rachel baker) want also to talk of "revolting" and manchester;
        josephine  is a cross between medieval hi tech and paesant
        hipness, jet-lagged. she is tired but it does not show. she says
        that crash media did not really fulfill its original intentions
        to be a local (manchester) initiative. during the break kate
        introduces me to brian holmes, one of those people who are in
        paris and on the net but that I do not get to meet in the flesh.
        people come and go. it was matthew fuller who had proposed a
        break, during which we talk of the small attendance and working
        with institutions; some attendees say that he did his best
        presentation they have seen; standing up all the time, the video
        is playing behind him, the june 18th protest; it did not happen
        in france; an intense presentation I believe, he is abrasive and
        sharp: roman. pauline van mourik history of mute magazine in a
        humourous non-indulgent and bright way; the audience leap at the
        few issues she has dropped on the desk, including the pink paper
        early version which I believe to be a collector's item. it was
        distributed for free initially. the internet connection works.
        the video works. the sound works. I get lost in my reverse
        history. when was diana mc carthy on ? I introduce her as
        <brackets> cyberfeminism </brackets>, she says that she does not
        understand those words. she talks of the women-only "faces"
        mailing list. she wants to have a discussion with the audience.
        josephine had said "a group talking to itself", isn't it always
        the case ? even if there is an audience. it does not matter
        much. like fredox having brought his friends. like martin and
        josephine and the others departing, giving each others big hugs
        as martin is "on stage". I find this very touching. last week,
        the net art week-end, I was constantly accompanied by 15-20
        people. this week they all scatter in random groups that reform
        or disband w/o me. I like it when diana's head tilts away and
        comes back. she is a great joker. where was I ? greeting alain
        the video technician from the museum, he is very efficient and
        quiet. I tell him to unplug the webcast applicances. I don't
        know if they will be here today. one guy arrives, late during
        the talk and summons a guardian which points him to matt. they
        go to the webcast booth together and after a while I see that
        matt looks puzzled, the other guy very upset. where have all the
        cables gone ?! who has fucked with his hardware ?! where is
        nicolas tremblay ?! the curator! I tell him I don't care. I tell
        him to call alain. I tell him that I interviewed him about
        "ondes sans frontieres". I tell him that it was published in
        Mute magazine, this woman is prensenting it right now. Nice, he
        says, and phones extension 4039, like I told him. that's where I
        was. pauline was speaking. diana ? rachel ? josephine ? matt
        now. he lays beautiful posters from mongrel on the tables and
        chairs. web stalker stickers. neat.. was I ? downstairs,
        upstairs. you can't drink coffee here. can we buy your cable ?
        it's a quarter to twelve the museum is not opened. the nearest
        open bar in this posh area of paris is one kilometer away. un
        double express. I am driving on the highway, side view mirror
        smashed. I kiss the kids good-bye, nina wanted to come, she is
        sleeping. I remember I used to weigh 74.5 kilos 10 days ago. we
        slept late, after the telebocal launch party, after driving on
        the highway. side view mirror smashed. gotta fix things.


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